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disperse02 April 2003 - 23:57 On my bus ride, I saw a company called Deconstruction. Their slogan was "the art of dismantling things for reuse." So true, on so many levels. This is tentative (and hinted at in worth and together-apart and nearly explicit in becky)...a way to make a belief system visible, but I don't know what the world would be like if we changed this belief system. We connect emotions with experiences. I'm in love with him because he said, "Nothing ever breaks." I'm sad because I'm afraid she's making choices that will drive us apart and hurt her life. I'm hurt because everyone left me. I used to dismantle belief systems that were more obvious, for example, take apart connections like alone = unworthy. But that still assumes that unworthy and an emotion are connected, and what if they're not? Or what if they don't have to be? Today I lay on my bed in the dark and tried to remove the "because's"; I simply attempted to generate pure emotion. I'm in love, so happy, so safe. I'm sad, so dark, so bottomless. * |