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to find your inner cathedral04 March 2003 - 15:08 A friend and i were talking about periods of insanity in our lives. He said that at the end of his, he realized you can NEVER gauge someone else's worth. I said, Oh, that reminds me of something I was reading yesterday: My friend said that was exactly what he meant. When I first read that quotation, I lay on my bed and let myself feel it. I thought that I had freed myself from letting beliefs define my worth, but really I've barely started. These thoughts floated to my mind about how often I base my sense of self-worth on something I say or do, or on something magical that happened to me. I let go; I felt the magic of simply existing. I felt warmth creep through my body, tingling. Space opened up in me as if I were a cathedral. I keep doing it today, especially when I think of what I learned yesterday. I'm not saying people shouldn't strive to meet their ideals; I'm only suggesting, do so to reflect your worth, not create it. |